He will be

March 4, 2010

I am sure that I’ll meet him some day and I will be lucky. The world’s most fortunate girl.

I do not know Who is he? where is he now? and what is he doing?
But I am sure that there is someone in the world that thinking to me now. I remember an interesting sentence from the Gabriel Garcia Marquez: In the world there  is someone who thinks to you before sleep and dreams about you.
You may be only one person in the world, but for some people you are whole of world. Perhaps God is prefer for you to know many poor people  and then you meet the appropriate person, thus when you found him, you can better grateful.

I am sure that one day he will be my side. اhe overcome my loneliness. I will be happy someday…

Choose

March 1, 2010

I don’t know what’s it’s name? destiny, mistake or something else. It can be said a lot of nouns. On the other hand it can be called an accident. Everything is possible in our lives.

Yesterday my friend said that she is in love with a person who their visions of life aren’t identical. I mean, the perspective of opinions are important in life such as attitude to life, religion, God and politics!

She said her beliefs are important, but she loves that boy. I think that  it should be a complex situation.

Dispute over the beliefs that have been valuable to you in your life or given priority to your lover that also so important in continue of your love and may be your future perspective?  although I think it is very difficult to live with someone who does not like your ideas or at least does not think like you. I think this conflict is so important after marriage. Because you live with someone under one roof. thus for improving your relationship and love it is so important that you have peace and calmness. Permanent conflict over ideas is very tedious and may reduce the understanding in life.
I said to my friend it is a good time to concern about her opinions to choose a right decision.

Forget…

February 2, 2010

– If he has been able to forget me, so I can.

+ you see? you still loves him.

– how you said this?

+ cause you still wanna do the same things that he has been done.

(A dialuge in a Persian movie: Nights On by Farzad Mo’tamen)

Too many sorrows

December 12, 2009

There are too many sorrows, as she woke up, she cried so much in her bed.
She has to pretend that no things happened, she has to pretend that she is good but she lied, she fears about her future, she fears about the recent events in her life. She fears about all of bitter events of recent week.
She wish she could talk with someone about her fears, her tears. But she cant trust anybody anymore. She bureid these pains in her heart.
She has so many pains so many wounds, but she can’t tell anybody. In fact nobody exist for secrecy.
She has deteriorative days. And the worst is she is alone both phisically and mentally. Therefore she passed them alone. Nobody protect her. She needs someone who support her mentally:(

Volume

November 28, 2009

I still remember them as well as the day I heard. Each of those sentences. The description about what was once? what was overall size of files? And where and how and why they are restored. And supposed some day I reach them.

This event will never happen. I’ll never see them…

The girl woke early and remembered these memories and tears washed her face.
I will never see the files like never they exits. They were always far from my eyes. I’m afraid even that may have been deleted…

My god… What I done with myself?

Crush

November 22, 2009

She’s lost inside

Or

I should write:

She disintegrated inside…

Scent of a Woman

November 21, 2009

I’m not a judge or jury. But I can tell you this: he won’t sell anybody out to buy his future!! And that, my friends, is called integrity! That’s called courage! Now that’s the stuff leaders should be made of. Now I have come to the crossroads in my life. I always knew what the right path was. Without exception, I knew. But I never took it. You know why? It was too damn hard:

Lt. Col. Frank Slade Addresses Baird School Disciplinary Hearing

Internet Traffic Begins to Bypass the U.S.

November 15, 2009

Invented by American computer scientists during the 1970s, the Internet has been embraced around the globe. During the network’s first three decades, most Internet traffic flowed through the United States. In many cases, data sent between two locations within a given country also passed through the United States.

Engineers who help run the Internet said that it would have been impossible for the United States to maintain its hegemony over the long run because of the very nature of the Internet; it has no central point of control.

And now, the balance of power is shifting. Data is increasingly flowing around the United States, which may have intelligence — and conceivably military — consequences.

American intelligence officials have warned about this shift. “Because of the nature of global telecommunications, we are playing with a tremendous home-field advantage, and we need to exploit that edge,” Michael V. Hayden, the director of the Central Intelligence Agency, testified before the Senate Judiciary Committee in 2006. “We also need to protect that edge, and we need to protect those who provide it to us.”

 

Read full artice here.

Lighting

November 11, 2009

The walking doesn’t benefit in days; sounds and light and bustle are disturbing for dreaming, you should wait until the night.

Some times the light isn’t a good thing. You can see everything. And all of mankind can see everything that you seen. You can dream in the dark that someone, somewhere, something are waiting for you. But you can’t see this dream in lighting … It is clear that these is no news in lighting…

A dialuge in a Persian movie: White Nights by Farzad Mo’tamen

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loneliness

November 11, 2009

Roya : why you are alone? Did you never think that can not be alone?
Professor: If you didn’t wait for someone, would you take that car, to overcome your loneliness?

Roya: no! probably I looked for someone who is like myself.
Professor: I did not. Because I don’t like myself.

Roya: you are odd.
Professor: you too.

A dialuge in a Persian movie: White Nights by Farzad Mo’tamen

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Happy

November 11, 2009

I am happy; just as happy as a sad man. A man who have a happy news, but don’t have someone to share the  news with her.

A dialuge in a Persian movie: White Nights by Farzad Mo’tamen

Illusion

November 10, 2009

Many things were effect less, like my tears.
The girl whispered the above sentence and cried more…

Now she knew the her feelings and thoughts are not important at all. She knew that she isn’t  number one like former. In fact, she was trying for something that does not exist and not exist from beginning.

Girls ponder with herself, how she affected with this much of  illusion?

Flick

November 10, 2009

I told her: you fall into loneliness again, because of constantly availability. You ready for them whenever they call you.
She replied to me: you are alone always, because you stay away from being available. All of them, think they can not reach you.

In face to face discussion with her I didn’t surrender. But in the privacy of myself, I accept what she said. In fact, she ran a good flick into me.

No one Else

November 9, 2009

Respect

November 9, 2009

For respect to some people we need more  knowledge and some of them less …

Today when I checked my Persian weblog counter, I saw an entry  from another weblog’s comments page. that blog belong to a Persian celebrity blogger who I left a comment for one of his posts. My comment was very honestly and respectful. Because The celebrity blogger “was” giant for himself and others in Persian blog world!

Later in charge of activity in social networks, I knew him more, and I understood that he is not committed to the ethics. He had some relationships with a married woman. In addition he has many negative points. For example, many lies and hypocrisy.

However,he is not important for me or my life. This man had no effect on my life and either me on his life. I don’t have any communication with him, but he  is not a  giant anymore and also I haven’t my former behavior with him.

Now I see how other bloggers and readers have so many respect to him, And I’ll sorry. cause morally he is a dead  man for me.

I wrote this post just wanna to say that respect is a concept which made by ourselves.  With our own actions and ethics, we  encourage others to respect us or disrespect.

Song

November 8, 2009

 

Sometimes I prefer to  to escape of thinking to you,

Like passing that song which I like it.

 

Contrary

November 7, 2009

The girl thought  this method is effective. She thought it  is the best way. In fact, the only existing way to maintain the  self-esteem. Answered, but the contrary.

The girl was upset. Because she made herself the enemies that never seen them. The girl was upset. Because her main enemy, was someone who should be her main friend. However, girl has a strange fate. Apparently she always has the hardest way to reach her goals or perhaps there is no reach in this time. God knows.

Depth

November 7, 2009
She saw something and it cause her  to cried very much. While she could start a good day. But not happened. Because she found the depth range.
Understanding of some facts, is always bitter… At least she understood that she shouldn’t  track it anymore. Because the depth is more than what she conjectured. And therefore, her efforts to improve, are  ineffectual & vain.
She desires that if she could talk with someone about it, to become a  little quiet. But talking about it is very hard. And more importantly that the girl isn’t able to do it. I know, like always she Will prefer to cry secretly.

Pain and Cure

November 5, 2009

The girl trying to be stand up. These days, she was very weak… She is trying to smile and forget her pains. Her only way to live was consistency with pains. She knew very well that she can’t  treat these wounds, she knew well that she lost control of the situation. In fact, her life was in crisis!

So little girl practice to live with her pains peacefully. It is important point that the source of pain and cure is same. Although the source of pain, was uninformed from the existence of the pain in the girl’s soul. Or maybe was informed but, prefer to pretend it is not important.

However, knowing this pain did not treat any of girl’s wounds. She was taught that lives alone.

I should stress that nobody really knows her, knowbody knows her pains, nobody knows her wounds. nobody really knows her… nobody really knows her… nobody really knows her.. :((

The last one

November 5, 2009

I Searched again, looked at them, A few minutes ago… The last one belong to the last year the same time. cause of some reasons I am not able to track anymore. I can only see for others and suffering every time it occurs.

What was its significance? The importance of those humility words that should be written? That is apparently intentional.

 

I consider them. A few minutes ago. The last one was short and contains a good definition of me.

Then was disconnected. In fact, everything changed. Of course, I did not blame low.
However, I do not see another after “that war”. I see them elsewhere. It is clear that is my sorrow. But I’m forced to hide it. Or pretend does not matter to me. You know? I don’t like this pain remains permanent.
I want to dream it will be finished soon. I am hopeful . I give myself constantly hope although unrealistic…

 

If here still have a reader, I would say to him/her: If you didn’t understand this text,No problem, because it is censored